I'm back on the road to perfection. My minor surgery threw me off, and the diet and exercise I had to submit to for health gave me a few lbs. I don't believe I am anorexic, but my calorie intake is far below what is "acceptable" in a healthy community and there is really no where I fit in. I just want to be somewhere where I am accepted and understood, so I am hoping that dropping here will work.

I have a plan for "healthy" eating for weight loss. The number of calories isn't necessarily healthy, but I have come up with the perfect diet that give me ALL of the micro nutrients I need (iron, potassium, calcium, etc.) in only 1000 calories. i actually could fit this into 546 calories a day, but I am trying to be a little "healthy" about this. I might do the 546 calories a few times a week. Anyway, I'm hoping that this, coupled with my higher level of protein intake, will allow me to lose weight to my goal BMI of 18.0 (or lower) without poor consequences of muscle loss, hair loss, brittle nails, and all that other crap associated with low calorie intake. I think a lot of that may have to do with inadequate micro nutrient intake, so here's hoping. I don't have much hair to begin with so I don't need to be losing more!

Part two of my plan involves working out. I jog three miles three times a week, use my rowing machine, do my 15 minute abs video, and other assorted exercises. I'm hoping this will help keep my metabolism burning, help the weight loss, and help retain muscle.

It's a bit embarrassing posting a picture of myself in a bikini, but I'm hoping seeing it everyday will help me stay motivated to lose more weight.

Going to the grocery store tonight to buy the "perfect" foods for my plan.